nohogirl

I got this rash like a month ago.@ first I thought dry skin.Then sweat from working out.I even thought poison ivy from hauling wood. It turns out I have an allergic reaction to what me nor my doc can figure out.The only new intro in my life was gym.(as much of a great excuse allergic to exercise)Any rate I need too take prednisone starting @ 60mg and coming down to 5 over 3.5 weeks. I have ulserated coltis so I know what happens.Major weight gain.To be honest my last big flare up I was on 60mg for 3 months and gained 40lbs.Not only do I not feel “great” I know I will be 1hungry,2 hold all water and weight,3 I become a lunitic.I guess I will roll with the punches=(

I didn’t even have a scale the first week.Whith all the mis-haps through this month.Today more then I could ever say many times in my life.I think I can really be healthy.No shame,guilt, or emotinal pain (still sore from gym) I thinking I’m learning I AM LOVEABLE!!!!!!Thank you evryone for your wisdom, and support.

P.S. Off to nap only 3 hours sleep and 6 hours sliding and schleping through snow.Can not spell or think clear. 

Fell off wagon fri and sat but still made it to gym.Then sat night (I work 11:pm till 6:am)I got sick. Rash fever ear ache upper head yucky stuff.I did not go to the gym sunday.Thou I did manage to stay on diet and avoid the tin of fudge,brownies,and all other yummy treats. I tried to xmas decorate instead.I am still sick but think I can manage a small work out.I need strong will power these treats are here till sat=(Up date tin still here.Even sicker come mon.Once I have the suger I can’t stop eating.I couldn’t go to the gym I did not want evryone to get sick. Thou I over ate and had the sweets.I stayed active at home.At least 95% of what I ate was healthy portions were not.One step instead of 6 cookies and 5 fudge it was 2 of each.I think the last days are a learning lesson that getting healthy is a process.Two steps forward one back.Todays a brand new day.Since 11/17 I still lost 19lbs as of this morning.I hope it doesn’t catch up to me tommorow on weigh day.I am ashamed to see weight coach after the last few day’s.I hope I can take shame and transform it into determination.Thank You for letting me be honest here. My secrets and shame I carry as weight literaly.

I don’t want to go. The best part is my gym buddy will be stranded (no car) at her Dr.s office if I dont pick her up. Thank god (no pun intended) for good old catholic guilt. Till 11:00 am I sit in my house on my day off and say,what a wreck. I know once I can get my 2 dogs to step outside and I drink my tea.That little voice that say’s “nikki isn’t nice to tie your shoes w/out struggle now,Open your trunk butten W/out opening the car door…. This is easier now that almost 20lb’s is gone.” Will prevail over the other voice that “say’s go watch tv. The ice cream is in the freezer. Chocolate even,what about a milk shake.You go to the gym everyday.Have a real day off.You can clean later.”Wait I hear my tea pot whistle. I know what the plan is,the buzz of the gym,the satisfaction of a clean house.Last but not least My mind,body,and soul feel alot better with the harder road at the end of the day!

My “torturer” was not around. I sat at the shoulder pull?(can not rember)I was so pumped to finish all 12 reps I didn’t relize I forgot to take off the extra five  pound thing a ma gig.Damn I feel so good.(sore hasn’t got me yet) I did an even more difficult 30 min on the tread mill.I was flying so high on the way home,I got pulled over for speeding by the state trooper lol!!! He let me go. The irony is he said he was looking for kids getting high!!!LOL I live near Umass,smith,hampshire,and amherst college. I take the back roads home from the gym.I like to see the farms and old cemeterys. I guess the kids like to smoke pot and take the road. I had a different buzz all together.

Yesterday and today one of the staff at my gym has been showing me the “optimal” use of the gym’s weights and cardio “stuff” After 2 days of her guidance every muscle is burning. I hate the strain but love the buzz. I actually can not wait till 10:00 am to see if I can do it again. The one thing I don’t like about weight loss. I need too work harder to burn the same calories. What a difference 17 pounds can make. Lift tomorrow. I feel weak now but I am determined tomorrow to do all 12 reps on the chest, triceps. Last time I could only do 10.

The right way.Down another 5 on this scale.Yesterday @ the weight loss coach was 9.She did weigh me w/out shoes and a work out w/out h20.Also wearing gym shorts and tee,not jeans and sweats. Anyhow I am happy with 17lb total 11/17.

I woke up after my nap (I work nights outside) I couldn’t get moving.No matter what I did I couldnt get my butt going.Still I needed to drive my gym buddy.We did go to the gym.Thank god, I have her.I didn’t do my regular 30 min on bike,cross trainer,and tread.(Lifted yesterday) I did 20 min on each.Then I was so energized that I cleaned the house,took a decent walk with dogs(20 degrees pug and lhasa not having it more then 15 min),after I spent 20 min hauling the wood inside for wood stove.Now I’m tired but my heads clear and I feel good about myself.Meet with weght manger tommorow. I hope the vigilance is reflected in weigh in. Thank you evryone for all the blogs,You are just as much of a motivator as my gym buddy.

I always thought you do 3 reps of 15 as a women.Not overeley straining.The instructer said 8 to 12 just once.Then in a week I will learn 4 more machines. I think there are 12 all together.Then once I master them all.One day arms one day legs.I do belive I will skip this hip one for now.My gym equpiment is old.It’s not the exrcise I feel like a pole dancer in a fat porno lol. I will buy a thigh master.lol  I forgot to ask her because its 3legs and 1arm (will skip hip)Can I do it @ each work out or skip day.Maybe one of you will know? Be well.

Lost total of 11 pounds

It really is twelve since I bought scale.I must of typed it in wrong. My tracker says 11. I think I got the scale 3 days after my diet began. I’m proud to have lost 4 pounds over the holiday. Not to mention my partner who is not on a diet has ice cream,pie,lugis italion ice…..I met with a weight loss spesialist at my gym.I will weigh in once a week and share my food and exercise journal. She will help me come up with diffrent meal plans and activities.To be honest all of you on buddyslim help me a hell of alot more.Today I have a 2:30 appointment to learn how to use lifting stuff.She cancled yesterday=(.Thankyou evreyone